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mnxblog — Sun, 29 Aug 2010 08:45:12 +0000

this blog will continue there.

finally, period is hither!

mnxblog — Wed, 14 Jul 2010 05:27:47 +0000

i went grocery shopping today. i saw one my favorite little students that is no longer in my class. she said hi. i bought a bag of cherries &a box of blueberries. i went to checkout. it was cute how i saw her staring at me from behind a shelf, &once i saw her.. she hid. haha, &i would over hear her telling her mom, “look, mom. that`s the teacher`s assistant!” i totally envy the kids i am T.A.ing for. i wish i could be a kid again. i wish i could tell my mom every little detail of my life &she`d actually pretend to be interested. i wish i could`ve grasped my childhood just a bit longer.

anyways..

mnxblog — Tue, 13 Jul 2010 09:11:58 +0000

i`ve finally gotten what i`ve been waiting for. i`ve decided (just a few moments ago) that i`m withdrawing from this love game. i`ve fallen too deep, become too needy &dependent, &it`s definitely not the person i want to be. especially knowing that this probably won`t last. everything is too good to be true. &yes, it was true &the time was great. but it`s definitely not the time. &i am definitely not ready for a heartache.

mnxblog — Fri, 09 Jul 2010 07:40:34 +0000

currently watching grownups.

mnxblog — Fri, 09 Jul 2010 06:48:20 +0000

my outlook on life has taken a complete 180 turn on me. so i took the test, &it came out negative. yay for me! today was my last day of working session 1; i will definitely miss the kids. well, i have a new set of kids. i love my best friend rica, oh so much. i have a doctor`s appointment tomorrow, &i won`t be seeing alex the next few days. it`s so hard not seeing him for more than a day; i really don`t know how i`ll manage when he`s off in college. :[

sole: damnit, i gotta go find a new italian to spend my days with
pe11: That's impossible the only other italian in milpitas are girls.
sole: i guess i`ll find me an irish boy.. or just another white boy. haha :[
pe11: Aww man. That sucks. What u gonna do this weekend
sole: probably hanging out w/ my new boyfriend. hahaha
pe11: Is that what u call ur dog nowadays ahhahaha
sole: fuck you ahahahah. that makes me wanna go find a new boy. >:)
pe11: I'm sorry though :'(
sole: no you`re an ass. you smell like one too. i can smell you from here.
pe11: But I just took a shower. I can smell ur sweetness all the way from here. ;]
sole: shut up, i didn`t even take a shower this month yet. i hope stay virginized.
pe11: How can something so mean come out of such a nice persons mouth?
sole: HAHA. damn.. can i please see you tomorrow? i miss you :[
pe11: Yea fosho I got ur back girl. That was really nice. Who’s talking to me? Lol jk
sole: i`m only mean to conceal my affection towards you. gross, huh hun? HAHA.
pe11: Lol what’s gross babe? Hahaha
sole: me.. actually liking you. that is what is gross, love.
pe11: Ouch so painful cutie. LOL

vents.

mnxblog — Sun, 04 Jul 2010 05:57:09 +0000

a good day turned into a sad night. i don`t know why. i hate the feeling of uncertainty. ..as in, someone is keeping something from me. i`m sad because i have not gotten my period. i`m sad because i feel cheated. i`m sad because i`m losing all my friends, slowly. BUT in the words of my best friend, i have all i need &the rest doesn`t matter. i miss my cousins. everything seems to be going wrong, but in reality, nothing is going wrong. i`m officially a pessimist as of this moment. i hate myself.

al eggs

mnxblog — Sat, 03 Jul 2010 06:37:16 +0000

x: i should`ve brought you to the beach
e: nah, it`s cool. you gotta have your life back.
x: what u mean i gotta have my life back.my life is way better when u around
e: wow, i`m flattered.
x: i gotcha back boy.

..so it turns out.

mnxblog — Fri, 02 Jul 2010 06:06:04 +0000

i didn`t get my period. i`m sad.

YAY

mnxblog — Mon, 28 Jun 2010 05:04:46 +0000

i finally got my period! this week has been cool. i`m drawing away from my friends. does that make sense? well, i had a lot of time to myself. &w/ alex, too. it kinda sucks how i`m becoming so attached to the one person who will be leaving. oh well, i`m not worried about the future, yet. but we went to SF yesterday. it was one of the best SF trips i`ve taken,. we walked for miles &it felt as if we covered the entire city of SF. we explored, went up random buildings, discovered an empty mall, ordered tea from chinatown, rested at random spots, walked the piers, got lost, &saw lots of gay people. we had great conversations &the walk up &down hills weren`t that bad. it was such a long day, but it was worth every tiring, painful step. we headed back around 8, got lost, &finally back at alex`s by 930/10.

quote/unquote

mnxblog — Thu, 24 Jun 2010 06:44:38 +0000

“I don’t have a fear of commitment; I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up, I screw things up. Especially with the people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be too close. I get confused; I don’t understand all of it. But I keep pushing because I hope in this thing, the universe, there’s no way I’m the only person out there who wants something this bad. If I want it, someone else out there must too.”