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i went grocery shopping today. i saw one my favorite little students that is no longer in my class. she said hi. i bought a bag of cherries &a box of blueberries. i went to checkout. it was cute how i saw her staring at me from behind a shelf, &once i saw her.. she hid. haha, &i would over hear her telling her mom, “look, mom. that`s the teacher`s assistant!” i totally envy the kids i am T.A.ing for. i wish i could be a kid again. i wish i could tell my mom every little detail of my life &she`d actually pretend to be interested. i wish i could`ve grasped my childhood just a bit longer.
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i`ve finally gotten what i`ve been waiting for. i`ve decided (just a few moments ago) that i`m withdrawing from this love game. i`ve fallen too deep, become too needy &dependent, &it`s definitely not the person i want to be. especially knowing that this probably won`t last. everything is too good to be true. &yes, it was true &the time was great. but it`s definitely not the time. &i am definitely not ready for a heartache.
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my outlook on life has taken a complete 180 turn on me. so i took the test, &it came out negative. yay for me! today was my last day of working session 1; i will definitely miss the kids. well, i have a new set of kids. i love my best friend rica, oh so much. i have a doctor`s appointment tomorrow, &i won`t be seeing alex the next few days. it`s so hard not seeing him for more than a day; i really don`t know how i`ll manage when he`s off in college. :[
sole: damnit, i gotta go find a new italian to spend my days with
pe11: That's impossible the only other italian in milpitas are girls.
sole: i guess i`ll find me an irish boy.. or just another white boy. haha :[
pe11: Aww man. That sucks. What u gonna do this weekend
sole: probably hanging out w/ my new boyfriend. hahaha
pe11: Is that what u call ur dog nowadays ahhahaha
sole: fuck you ahahahah. that makes me wanna go find a new boy. >:)
pe11: I'm sorry though :'(
sole: no you`re an ass. you smell like one too. i can smell you from here.
pe11: But I just took a shower. I can smell ur sweetness all the way from here. ;]
sole: shut up, i didn`t even take a shower this month yet. i hope stay virginized.
pe11: How can something so mean come out of such a nice persons mouth?
sole: HAHA. damn.. can i please see you tomorrow? i miss you :[
pe11: Yea fosho I got ur back girl. That was really nice. Who’s talking to me? Lol jk
sole: i`m only mean to conceal my affection towards you. gross, huh hun? HAHA.
pe11: Lol what’s gross babe? Hahaha
sole: me.. actually liking you. that is what is gross, love.
pe11: Ouch so painful cutie. LOL
a good day turned into a sad night. i don`t know why. i hate the feeling of uncertainty. ..as in, someone is keeping something from me. i`m sad because i have not gotten my period. i`m sad because i feel cheated. i`m sad because i`m losing all my friends, slowly. BUT in the words of my best friend, i have all i need &the rest doesn`t matter. i miss my cousins. everything seems to be going wrong, but in reality, nothing is going wrong. i`m officially a pessimist as of this moment. i hate myself.
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x: i should`ve brought you to the beach
e: nah, it`s cool. you gotta have your life back.
x: what u mean i gotta have my life back.my life is way better when u around
e: wow, i`m flattered.
x: i gotcha back boy.
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i didn`t get my period. i`m sad.
